Posts by Big Shooter

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My Story... please don't freak out on me...

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my story .

well, i am new here, and i have a very long story.

i don?t even know where to begin.

Big Shooter

In my opinion, Field Service was nothing but a game to see who could get the most hours in every month. The winner gets gossipped about. That was the funniest thing I have heard all day... LMAO

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My Story... please don't freak out on me...

by Big Shooter in

my story .

well, i am new here, and i have a very long story.

i don?t even know where to begin.

True enough... I mean, like I said, I do agree with the principles, and the fact that we do have a Creator. But... I'm sorry, but I guess I was just never a good "head" of the household. I was never able to keep up a regular family study every week, do 1/2 hr bible reading every day, watchtower, ministry school, college, work, wife, child!!! and i would sit there at the assembly, and here the expereinecs of the model family, every one of their kids are pioneers, they do their text every morning, study every publication out there.. i tried that!! i tried everything! and i couldnt do it!! and i felt like a complete failure not doing it!! i'm sorry, but if we are doing a volunteer work, why do we have to record every single thing every month? isnt that for show???i am sure not everyone is honest about their quota of hours every month!!

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My Story... please don't freak out on me...

by Big Shooter in

my story .

well, i am new here, and i have a very long story.

i don?t even know where to begin.

Big Shooter

it's so weird.. this is such a terrifying experience to post these things, but its such a relief at the same time. I dont think Jehovah wants us to worship him with these feelings...

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My Story... please don't freak out on me...

by Big Shooter in

my story .

well, i am new here, and i have a very long story.

i don?t even know where to begin.

Big Shooter

Funny you say that... I saw one of my friends I grew up with who was DF'd last year in the car, and I waved at him. I mean... why would you ever want to come back to the organization when you cant speak to anyone in the hall, and you cant have worldly friends?? pretty much, you have to be a hermit, and be happy about it !! for heavens sakes, we all make mistakes!!! why do you have to be put on trial in the supreme court??

The worst injustice about this whole thing is that this other "sister" is just going on with her life, pretending like nothing happened!! I mean, I paid for my mistake, I almost lost my family. Yet, my wife has to keep hush hush about it.. well to the hell with that!! She never once said.. I'm sorry for sleeping with your husband.. NEVER!! If youre really remorseful, shouldnt the elders have made sure that she apologized to my wife?? Oh no, of course not!! the tramp sheds a few tears, and she gets off the hook! I dont care anymore if people know what I did!! But its insulting that she can just go on like nothing happened. My wife already said that she would beat the s**t out of her if she ever saw her again.. and I cant blame her. Worst thing is, she is in our circuit, and she goes about like nothing ever happened...

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My Story... please don't freak out on me...

by Big Shooter in

my story .

well, i am new here, and i have a very long story.

i don?t even know where to begin.

Big Shooter

Winston, Reading what you just wrote makes me want to break down and cry... It's exactly how we feel. You know whats really sad though? My wife's parents have studied years ago, but decided to leave for reasons like this. Thru this whole thing, they were so supportive of me. They became like my parents, they didnt judge me, and they didnt talk to me only when it was about religion. They are genuinely good people. They have tried numerous times over the past 8 years to get together with my parents for a tea or coffee, but my parents always manage to come up with an excuse. Like they are busy, or they have things to do. Meanwhile, they have time to assocaite with people in the hall, but because my in-laws are "worldly", heaven forbid. The only time my dad talks to them is when he bugs them about why they havent been coming to the meeting. I'm sorry, but that is not encouraging!! How do you explain yo uonly talk to someone when its about the truth!! arent we supposed to take a personal interest in fellow humans?? dont get me wrong, i love my parents very much, and they did support me thru the affair ... but i just cannot take the pressure anymore!!

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My Story... please don't freak out on me...

by Big Shooter in

my story .

well, i am new here, and i have a very long story.

i don?t even know where to begin.

Big Shooter

here's a shocker... my dad just called me to remind me of the assebly this weekend... i swear, i can't take this anymore. i mean , i havent told him how my wife and me feel, so he probably wonders whats going on. I dont know what to do anymore.. I know that worshiping the true God should NOT feel like this...

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My Story... please don't freak out on me...

by Big Shooter in

my story .

well, i am new here, and i have a very long story.

i don?t even know where to begin.

Big Shooter

Exactly.. the fact of the matter is, the organization is run by imperfect humans.They can make mistakes, yet that is never acknowledged. You cannot read other people literature or views, but they HAVE to read yours. Certain things I could never understand as a kid: Why cant you celebrate birthdays? yes, there are 2 examples in the bible of bad things.. but i'm sorry, i cannot forget the birth of my son or its date, it doesnt mean we go crazy or nuts , drinking and drugs.. but we do have a little dinner to remember. i mean, we can celebrate wedding anniversaries right? but isnt that the same thing? a birthday is an anniversary of your birth!!

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My Story... please don't freak out on me...

by Big Shooter in

my story .

well, i am new here, and i have a very long story.

i don?t even know where to begin.

Big Shooter

thank you mulan... the sad and scary thing is, we've stopped going to meetings for a few weeks now, and to be honest, its a huge relief!! less stress!! i mean, i can never forget what i learned and the principles you learn are good.. but i feel right now we need a break to sort things out. i mean i got baptized at 12 years old.. once again pressure, my best friend was getting baptized that same day. but looking back, it wasnt heartfelt...

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My Story... please don't freak out on me...

by Big Shooter in

my story .

well, i am new here, and i have a very long story.

i don?t even know where to begin.

Big Shooter

EXACTLY!! My dad was been harassing me for years about meetings.. finally about 2 months ago I stood up to him for the first time. i yelled at him.. 26 years of holding it in. Rushing like a lunatic every tues nite from work to get to tthe meeting. i asked him, dad if i were to leave the truth, would you shun me? he couldnt answer. that was very hurtful. its that paranoia that you are a complete letdown... i know the truth shouldnt be like this, and jehovah is a loving god. i mean, whenever someone in the hall isnt a pioneer anymore, the whole congregation is silent, as thought he did thte most horrible thing, instead of thanking him for his years of service, you are a screwup. Unbelievable...

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My Story... please don't freak out on me...

by Big Shooter in

my story .

well, i am new here, and i have a very long story.

i don?t even know where to begin.

Big Shooter

We have a circuit assmebly coming up this weekend, and we dont even want to go... plus the memorial. I mean, its these rules people impose. Its wrong for my son to see scooby doo because of spiritism yet its okay for their child to see the hulk with all its violence. Hello !!! You cant speak to worldly people even if they are family, its only okay when they start to becocme a witness. How can you take an interest people on the condition that they are a witness?? You have to shun any worldly family because they are bad association!! yet there are so many people in the organization who are worse than them, but they are supposed to be your spiritual family !! so many things...